I know, I know, Facebook placards, RIGHT?! But I couldn’t help myself, I had to do it, I looked over and reached for the book nearest me, which happened to be Lee Lehman’s very excellent Book of Rulerships (a book detailing which planets have been known to rule which experiences since Ptolemy). On the inside of my copy Lee has inscribed “Wonder – Best, best wishes!” but I can’t imagine this is what she meant, since when I turned to page 45 this is what greeted my eyes:
HAHAHAHA I know, serves me right. DUH. But though this spoke volumes to me, it’s not technically a paragraph, so I felt justified in turning to the next closest book to me, which happened to be Arielle Guttman’s Venus Star Rising. Surely a book dedicated to dear, sweet Venus, the planet in charge of love, would be kinder to me, right? You might think so, but N O.
Can you read that? Here, let me spell it out for you: “The only demonic implication of the Venus Star is that when what it represents – light and love – becomes blocked or destroyed by people, its dark side, which is fear, emerges. It is, after all, people’s fears that have created demons.”
I suppose it’s a good sign that I busted up laughing over this. And not hysterical crying-on-the-inside laughing, but genuine good old belly laughing. You see, I can own that it’s true. This IS my love life. This is exactly what I’ve created for myself. Straight up truth is almost always the funniest thing there is.
But if I’d tried this experiment two years ago and got the same results it wouldn’t have made me laugh. I would have been sick to my stomach over it. The difference is that two years ago I couldn’t own the fact that I’ve created this, I was still somehow looking to foist it off on my chart, on the Universe, on my ex, on anyone and anything but myself.
The last few months have been hard, I cannot tell a lie. This Venus retrograde started out badly for me, and only got worse as it went on. But we’re on the other side of it now, can you feel it? I can. Adam Gainsburg calls this part of the retrograde period Emergence, because Venus is growing brighter and brighter in the morning sky, having just emerged from a period of invisibility as her orbit took her between the earth and the sun.
And I can feel something’s shifted. I’m still mulling over the epiphanies and revelations and they’ve not worked their way yet into my corpuscles or bones, but I can see it’s time for some changes around here. I can’t stay in my 12th house forever, just because my Venus is trapped there. I AM NOT MY VENUS, DAMMIT.
Maybe Venus isn’t hitting you quite so hard as it is me, but I’d be willing to bet there’s some place in your life where you’ve been dealing with some latent pain and I’m telling you, it’s time to let it go, my friend. Just let it go. You don’t need it.
Release! Shine bright, my Little Morning Stars, it’s time to come out!